Burnt Out!
I'm totally exhausted! Come to think of it, my weekends have been burnt from April onwards. Hmm...have been working on every Saturdays for the past 2 months or so. Haiz...now I seriously think that I'm an overwork but underpaid employee! Nevertheless, I still love my job lah.
April 11 , which happens to be my sis's birthday is also my 1 year anniversay as a Professional Kopi-Soh. I've learnt many things during this 1 year. Everyday is like a brand new day, with new learning opportunities. The 1 thing that I'm still learning is PR = People's Relation. Ok, or so called as Interpersonal Skills. Well, all the while I do not have problems interacting with people maybe coz of my chatty or rather "3-8" nature. So irregardless of whatever or whichever level, I've got no problems clicking with these people. But recently, I can feel the difference in treatment by the people in my department, except for 1, whom I respect a lot. Maybe coz she has been in my shoes, so she prolly knows how it feels. It's not easy being a middleman, or rather, the baddie to distribute/allocating work to people. After all, who wants to work extra and not being paid. But they failed to understand the fact that I also get the instructions from the higher management as well. Mmm...Not too sure izzit that I'm sensitive or what, but sometimes I do feel that they're like ganging up against me or something, and trying to outcast me. Initially, I was pretty affected, coz I'm upset by the fact that I did not sabotage them or whatsoever, yet I'm getting some kinda attitude treatment from these people. Probably, they felt that I'm so close to my boss, so better don't get so close to me etc. Haiz....Ok, I don't deny that I'm pretty close with my boss, BUT... I do draw a line especially when it comes to Work. I respect my boss and I don't 'paw' her. I don't see the need to....well, prolly our characters are quite similar, we can read each other's mind at times so I know what she wants and her expectations. Still, I DO NOT take advantage of this fact and use my authority or something. Anyway, I'm kinda disillusioned with people. Just 1 year, I meet soooo many people in my line of work that now, I truly understand the meaning of "Se Hui Da Xue" or also known as University of Society! So now, I've decided that I shall just do my work not bother about such issues too much. After all, I don't owe them a living. And if I leave the Company just because of such issue, I think I'm the dumbest person on earth, coz I believe that everywhere is the same! Gona just adopt the F**K-Care Attitude. Well, I guess it's one of the elements to survive in this society anyway.
Mmm....met with some relationship problems again. It's pretty complicating....not gona blog on it too much either as I'm kinda confused as well. Meanwhile, I guess being single is the best option for now. Like what I tell my friends... I'm single and avaliable, but not desperate. And I've mastered the skill of loving someone, without possessing the person. Well, I guess in life, certain things are just not meant to be....I don't know....or is it that I give up too easily?....I don't know either. Maybe I'm just too tired and disillusioned about everything. Mmm....this blog entry seems to be kinda depressing.....
Oh well, on a happier note, I've finally cleared all my events! *Yippie*....Food Hotel Asia, New Paper Big Walk, Singapore Food Expo etc....I've pulled through! Haha....Currently I've still got the SuperBand project to follow up. Still got a few roadshows coming up I guess. A short break will be good....or maybe I should just indulge in shopping therapy instead! It's the Great Singapore Sale! Hahaha....Gona shop till I drop!
April 11 , which happens to be my sis's birthday is also my 1 year anniversay as a Professional Kopi-Soh. I've learnt many things during this 1 year. Everyday is like a brand new day, with new learning opportunities. The 1 thing that I'm still learning is PR = People's Relation. Ok, or so called as Interpersonal Skills. Well, all the while I do not have problems interacting with people maybe coz of my chatty or rather "3-8" nature. So irregardless of whatever or whichever level, I've got no problems clicking with these people. But recently, I can feel the difference in treatment by the people in my department, except for 1, whom I respect a lot. Maybe coz she has been in my shoes, so she prolly knows how it feels. It's not easy being a middleman, or rather, the baddie to distribute/allocating work to people. After all, who wants to work extra and not being paid. But they failed to understand the fact that I also get the instructions from the higher management as well. Mmm...Not too sure izzit that I'm sensitive or what, but sometimes I do feel that they're like ganging up against me or something, and trying to outcast me. Initially, I was pretty affected, coz I'm upset by the fact that I did not sabotage them or whatsoever, yet I'm getting some kinda attitude treatment from these people. Probably, they felt that I'm so close to my boss, so better don't get so close to me etc. Haiz....Ok, I don't deny that I'm pretty close with my boss, BUT... I do draw a line especially when it comes to Work. I respect my boss and I don't 'paw' her. I don't see the need to....well, prolly our characters are quite similar, we can read each other's mind at times so I know what she wants and her expectations. Still, I DO NOT take advantage of this fact and use my authority or something. Anyway, I'm kinda disillusioned with people. Just 1 year, I meet soooo many people in my line of work that now, I truly understand the meaning of "Se Hui Da Xue" or also known as University of Society! So now, I've decided that I shall just do my work not bother about such issues too much. After all, I don't owe them a living. And if I leave the Company just because of such issue, I think I'm the dumbest person on earth, coz I believe that everywhere is the same! Gona just adopt the F**K-Care Attitude. Well, I guess it's one of the elements to survive in this society anyway.
Mmm....met with some relationship problems again. It's pretty complicating....not gona blog on it too much either as I'm kinda confused as well. Meanwhile, I guess being single is the best option for now. Like what I tell my friends... I'm single and avaliable, but not desperate. And I've mastered the skill of loving someone, without possessing the person. Well, I guess in life, certain things are just not meant to be....I don't know....or is it that I give up too easily?....I don't know either. Maybe I'm just too tired and disillusioned about everything. Mmm....this blog entry seems to be kinda depressing.....
Oh well, on a happier note, I've finally cleared all my events! *Yippie*....Food Hotel Asia, New Paper Big Walk, Singapore Food Expo etc....I've pulled through! Haha....Currently I've still got the SuperBand project to follow up. Still got a few roadshows coming up I guess. A short break will be good....or maybe I should just indulge in shopping therapy instead! It's the Great Singapore Sale! Hahaha....Gona shop till I drop!
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